My heart still sobs for you

Dear Eva & Lewis,

It's almost been a week since I last saw you and so much has happened. I found a house now and a job. They both came two days too late for you both. I wish you could come with me!

My heart still sobs for you. 

Not a day goes by where I don't think about you both. I still wake up in the mornings feeling panicked because I didn't feed you the night before. I wonder what your days are like. Are you having fun learning new things? I bet you've had a bath by now and you're both looking gorgeous. I hope you're not scared or feeling sad I haven't come to see you. How much I wish I could just come and see your beaming faces one more time. To throw the ball as far as I can and watch you both run after it through the bushes. I try and convince myself you're having an adventure and the time of your life. But that place must get lonely, the howls must be haunting and that cage must feel like prison to you.

I'm sorry I was too weak of a person to show you your new bed. I'm sorry I never gave you that one last pat and kiss on the head. You were both my babies, my dogs who I loved so much. I'm sorry if you feel scared or lonely, I'm sorry for everything.

My best friend told me I'm sharing your love with other people. I hope you see it that way too. I pray to dear God you don't feel rejected and abandoned. It kills me inside to think that you would feel that way.

All I can do now is pray.

Please don't ever forget that I love you both so much.